Monday, March 7, 2011

Pick me! Pick me!

I was flipping channels last night, desperately looking for something worth watching and I came across one of those reality shows where they are doing challenges and playing strategies. By the end of the first episode, it was becoming quite evident who wasn't really "wanted" and would be the first to be voted off. I cringed. Visions of elementary school kick-ball came back to haunt me. There I was, standing and hoping that someone would pick me.....please. Don't make me be last to be chosen.

To be honest, I'm not sure I'd have picked me back then either. I was so convinced I couldn't really do anything that it became a self-fulfilling prophecy. I wasn't that athletic, and thanks to being the child of a teacher, I also wasn't Miss Popular. That's not fair.....I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have been Miss Popular no matter what my mom did for a living. Like I said, I wasn't really a candidate to be picked for anything other than teacher's pet. I was a stickler for obeying the rules and being "good". I just wasn't really "good" at anything. If I was on one of those reality shows, I'd be a shoe-in to be voted off in the first episode.

That's why I am so overwhelmed that I was finally chosen. Someone actually picked ME! For a while, I was overwhelmed with excitement! I felt like I could take on the world because I was chosen!

Of course, reality has a way of deflating a person's happiness balloon.....sort of like those reality shows find a way to show your most embarrassing moments and highlight your inadequacies - right before voting you off the show. I battled the feeling that it was only a matter of time before I would be "found out" and voted off the team.....

Thankfully, this isn't a reality show..... it's reality. I was chosen - in spite of myself. I was chosen by the King!
Eph. 1:4 (Amp.)"Even as [in His love] He chose us [actually picked us out for Himself as His own] in Christ before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy (consecrated and set apart for Him) and blameless in His sight, even above reproach, before Him in love."

There is a song by the David Crowder band that causes me to catch my breath every time I hear it. One verse says,"You make everything glorious and I am Yours. What does that make me?"

Who am I to argue with the one who created the world and all that is in it? He picked me? He won't vote me off when He figures out my flaws? Can this really be true?

The longing of every woman's heart is to be chosen - picked....not left standing against the wall, hoping to be asked to at some bad Jr. High Sock Hop. Okay, now I'm re-living days I'd MUCH rather forget. 

I know I'm not the only one crying out in my heart, "Pick me!" We all want to be chosen....we want to take part in something greater than ourselves. We want to know that we are wanted. The good news is that He does want us...just the way we are.

My prayer is that each person reading this will hear the one who calls to your heart and says, "I have chosen you." He is calling....don't be afraid to say, "Here I am, pick me."

On a side note....I am hoping that I will be picked for something else. Don't worry, it's not a reality show.

There is a conference for writers and speakers that I hope to be "picked" to attend. It is sort of scary to admit that you want to be put yourself out there and take the risk of being rejected....of being told you aren't good enough for the "team." Yet I have a dream of writing and speaking to people...of sharing my blog and the things God shows me with others. I'm stepping out and saying, "Okay God. If you open the door, I'll go."

The Shespeaks conference is a chance for women like me to grow as writers and speakers - to develop the gift they feel God has given them. Please check out the link to find out more. (Shespeaks) If you read my blogs and think maybe they are worth it, please share them with others and say a prayer. I'd really love to be "picked" for what I do..

As always, thanks for reading.

*** Please note, if you do not have a blog — don’t fret. An amazingly generous blogger has donated a scholarship we’ll give away to those who e-mail their entry to with the subject line reading “She Speaks Scholarship Entry.” Please email to Holly by Friday, March 11.


deborahspalette said...

Donna your post is awesome. I found your blog via the She Speaks linky. I am on a mission to meet as many Christian women I can that have a heart for God.
I would also love to go and I pray God will make a way for us all to go to this life changing event.
I hope you will stop by and meet me too @
Many blessings,Deborah
Good Luck

Sarah said...

Donna, thanks for stopping by my blog and your encouraging words. We had a similar year last year AND you're a runner. I'm a wannabe that sometimes actually runs. I did it today! :-) What a beautiful post! Oh, I hope you get to attend SheSpeaks! And I hope I do, too, and I hope I get to meet you! How awesome would that be! (I use exclamation marks excessively -- I hope you're okay with that... :-)

Kathy Castor said...

Hey Donna! Thanks for stopping by at my blog earlier. I really appreciated your note and to connect to someone else who grew her family through transracial adoption. I enjoyed reading your post as well and will come back and visit again!

Thanks again!

Kathryn said...

Donna - you always know how to reach in and grab that deep, secret place and make it come out to the wonderful Light that is Christ! I am sooooo pulling for you to win ;) And, when you go, you have to be sure to tell us ALL about it here :)

Donna said...

I already feel like such a winner - since entering She Speaks, I've been introduced to some really wonderful bloggers (to add to my already favorite ones like you Kathryn.) I know we'll all be blessed by whomever He decides to send.